Monday, November 30, 2009

This Week in DD 11/22/2009-11/29/09

A little late this week secondary to the Thanksgiving holiday...

I know I got spanked for something this week, but I honestly can't recall what it was... Oh, for leaving the dogs out to run the house when I went to work and Paul was still asleep. I do this a lot, apparently. They bark and bark when I wake up, so I let them out so they don't bother Paul, and then I run out of time to round them back into the bedroom before I leave for work. The brain is a little foggy at 4 something in the morning... Anyway, it bugs Paul, and he spanked for it.

The fact that it is taking me this long to remember what it was for seems like a really good sign to me. In the beginning I would have been able to recall every last detail of the spanking at the drop of a hat. Now, it just kind of seems normal. He spanked, I was sorry, and when I see the dogs running around the house in the morning, I remember not to leave them out.

Although come to think of it, I think they were out THIS morning.... No, no they weren't! Paul slept on the couch because we got back in so late and I fell asleep immediately and he didn't want to sneak into the bedroom to wake me up, so the dogs were with him in the living room. Whew, I had myself worried there for a second! :)

We were at my brother's house for Thanksgiving, and it was nice to see that Paul was still all HOHy most of the time. Just little comments here and there. I didn't end up doing anything too terrible (I don't think?) so he had no reason to actually spank, but I felt like he would have mentioned it and actually followed through when we got home if there had been a problem. That was a nice feeling.

Not much else to report this week. Lots of work to wrap up this last rotation before Christmas break when we hit the road again...

Hope you all had a wonderful holiday!

Jenna

Sunday, November 22, 2009

This Week in DD 11/16-11/22 2009

I'm stealing this idea from my husband, who starting doing this on his blog today (gentlemansguidetodd.blogspot.com). I thought it might be helpful for people who follow both blogs to be able to read about our DD from both perspectives.

Part of Paul's post today helped remind me that even though I'm the one who brought this to our marriage, DD isn't all about me. I was particularly struck when he said that "Part of the reason I haven't been the HOH I prefer to be this week is that I haven't done all that I need to do."

Some weeks I find myself getting so frustrated when Paul lets things slide, and I jump to conclusions about why: He doesn't really believe in this, he thinks I'm crazy for wanting this, he's too lazy to follow through, etc. I end up thinking myself into a really bad place.

The truth is, neither one of us is perfect. No matter how long we practice DD, I'm never going to be perfect at submitting, and he's not going to be perfect at leading. We're going to mess up. I'm going to get spanked for some things 1,000 times and never totally get the point. That's ok. He's going to let things slide when he shouldn't sometimes. That's ok, too. What I need to work on is talking about it, and not psyching myself out about the whole thing...

Jenna

Finally getting around to making that first post...

Hello!

I've had this blog for a while now, and I've just been staring at the empty screen wondering what to write. Today my husband posted something on his blog that gave me an idea of where I could start, so I'm finally going to give the blog world a try.

I'm Jenna. I'm in my twenties, and I brought the idea of DD to my husband fairly early on in our marriage. I have always been "wired" for spanking and DD, but my husband Paul was in uncharted territory. He is sweetheart by nature, and he had been of the mindset that the more he bent over backwards for me, the happier I would be. Hearing that telling me "No" might actually be just what a need was a shocker, to say the least! Things have changed quite a bit in the last year or so that we have been practicing DD...

I hope to use this blog as a place to share some our ups and downs, and I hope anyone reading will feel free to chime in with comments/questions.

Welcome!

Jenna